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In Defense of the Huddled Masses

Note about the photo:  1968 – The woman in the hat is my mother on the day she flew to America for the first time.  Two of my sisters, one of my brothers, my paternal grandmother and a slew of…

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Locked-up Abroad: Self-Imprisonment Edition

MMA Fighters and Ledge-Jumpers I innately know when I am miserable (in-misery) and in need of a time-out but my insecurities have conditioned me to believe otherwise so sometimes it takes me a bit to acknowledge that’s where I…

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My Little Girl Army

The tears of little girls No longer stream down my face; My wrinkles absorb them They dissolve without a trace. Once audible sobs Are now stifled in my chest By lungs which squelch them With mindful, controlled breaths. Their…

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Palm Tree in the Desert

One of the blessings I cherish most in my life is having the ability to observe nature unimpeded by the constraints of time.  The similarities between human behavior and those of flora and fauna are many and I suppose…

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Joys of Aging

Part 1:  Slipping into my Senior Years in Vans™ aka “On the Road to I Don’t Give a Fuck”[1] April 8, 2015 I find myself here at the precipice of late middle age (44), where I am at moments,…

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Unchained

When we say we are Victims of circumstance; We are but children Afraid of consequence. When we think and feel It’s someone else’s fault; We feed our guilt And fear of getting caught. When we stop trying To accuse…

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Fear + A Beach Wolf = A Lesson in Compassion

Fear is the great equalizer.  The indiscriminate disease of fear can strike any economic group, race, gender or age.  Fear blinds us to the real issues at hand and seeks to subversively bind us to that which it has…

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Growing Pains

We see We breathe We are living We live We laugh We are looking We look We seek We are searching We search We find We are loving We love We give We are binding We bind We choke…

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The Discomfort Zone

Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam I am a curiosity here; an oddity for sure – a rare bird, a wild animal, the most foreign of foreigners. People stop and stare and tap their friends and their children so that…

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About a Broken Box, Compassion and Charity

I originally wrote this on November 15, 2015, the day after there had been a terrorist attack in Paris.  There have been other similar attacks in France and elsewhere in the world since the time I originally wrote this and…

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Breathing Is Doing Something

Second full day of Vipassana (silent meditation retreat) Wat Suan Mokkh, Chaiya, Surat Thani, Thailand I arrive at the post lunch sitting meditation session in the main meditation hall a few minutes early although in absence of a clock…

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And Sometimes

And sometimes I feel like “And sometimes” is the only way To begin the expression of new thought. After one has discarded previous ways of thinking And has opened the channels to new shit, “And sometimes” clears the way…

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Bruise My Heart

Love my heart Until it expands and grows wings So that I may find myself floating And dangling puppet-like from your string Bruise my heart Until my blood rises, boils and thins Until the black and blue Is both…

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Mirror, Mirror

My fears are triggered by your presence My girded façade begins to crumble. Terrified by your mere existence I brace myself for the inevitable tumble. In your reflection I watch and observe My best and my worst selves Riding…

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The Gecko and The Cat

It was an exceptionally dark night in the jungle.  It was the rainy season and although there were a million stars in the sky, nary a one could be seen from the forest floor on account of the dense…

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Who Am I?

Who am I? This is the million dollar question, no? If this was the American game show “Who Wants to be a Millionaire?” the audience would be useless for this question and I could phone as many friends as…

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You Will Know

You will know you’re doing it right When you no longer want to leave You will know you’re doing it right When you can stop just to breathe. You will know they love you When they disagree and fight…

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Sometimes the Reflection is Ugly

Sometimes the reflection is ugly, A hideous malformed amalgamation Of all of my worst selves. Sometimes it is hard to find the light In the sharp, jagged crevices Of my own soul. How dare I expect you to supply…

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Be a Mirror Part 2

You want me to be more like you? You want to fix my behavior and my thoughts too? Just a few minor adjustments are all that I need. To fit the image of what you want me to be.…

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On the Gift of Aging

I’m losing my eyesight But have a clarity of vision like never before. I’ve lost the ability to make babies But I meet my children every day in the people I see and speak with for I give them…